.no title.

juadah yang enak dijamu
katil yang empuk buat beradu
tawa rakan hilangkan rindu

tapi
hati aku masih pedih ditusuk sembilu..
amat pedih.

.how dare you?!.

what is one thing that you cant live without?

have you ever thought of it? please, drop me an answer.i bet you might be shocked of your own choice.i have never thought about it before.i mean, not seriously.

as you get older and wiser, you'll find out that there are so much to learn. almost everything.and that everything will have so much in contact with you till you cant get out of it. before you know it, you are actually getting attached to that everything and at last you cant live without it.

it triggers me to believe on two most important things in my life which can kills me in anyway that people can be killed.

they are L.O.V.E and F.A.M.I.L.Y

do you know how vulnerable those things can be? and because of that we are very engaged to them our whole life. i refuse to answer my question above.cause i know that it is not one thing but they are two things; the only things that i cant live without. go to h*** with those lunatic + brainless people who were so shallow to appreciate how priceless those things can be! you are heartless!

believe it or not, those two words are entangled;need one and another;meaningless if being broken.please, i beg you. dont you ever ever lost faith on L.O.V.E and your own F.A.M.I.L.Y cause i can sure you that your life would certainly be up side-down.
the you'll know berape tinggi langit tue. (geram amat sangat)

p/s: penulis terkesan dengan tindakan saudara yang membelakangkan keluarga demi kebahagiaan rumah tangga.tindakan mereka mengundang malapetaka keluarga sudah pasti.
saya tidak suka. amat tak boleh terima.

.from yikes to yeay!!.

yeay!! the goal medal is definitely the perfect way to end year 2oo9.

at last. after 20 sole years, waiting patiently for some and criticizing all the way through for most, it is a reward for Malaysia's national football team to kick Vietnam's a** for the goal medal in the Sea Games. though im not the kind of gurl who would eat and sleep with football,just yet, but i felt grateful and proud to be part of it.its like the spirit and soul of winning mix with hope and dream of every single Malaysian.
TWO THUMBS UP!!

people are talking about it.and soon it'll be the benchmark for the team to carve more sweet moments like we used to have.hopefully.=)

Malaysia's football team was drowning, before.people were talking here and there.making comparisons and what not.begins with the conspiracy,discipline till the achievements itself were all chocked. myself also fall for it.afraid of losing again and again.

but people still go to mamak stall to support the team no matter what the result would be..cause bola sepak dekat di hati. i dont have to say it. you'll know yourself how football can drive you crazy like hell.

Malaysia people, may the victory will always with us.

HIDUP BOLA SEPAK!!

.if only you know.

duduk termangu di birai jendela

aku terbuai bingkisan kisah kita

dirobek dan dicarik kesal tidak bertepi

aku terlentok berjuraian sendiri

patah kerana terpisah

basah keluh kesah

jiwa kosong bak patung

berteriak mohon tolong

bisakah?

.a new day for me and you.

SALAM MAAL HIJRAH 1431



a new day opens up to a new me, hopefully.

may Allah bless us in every step all the way.


;)

.jadi selebriti boleh mati.

siapa yang tidak kenal dengan wajah kacak (bagi saya) di atas? Remy Ishak bukan nama asing lagi. semenjak namanya menjadi topik bualan hangat media dan peminat fanatik hampir gila kisah Nur Kasih di tv3 dan wataknya sebagai Mansor Adabi dalam teater Natrah, Remy Ishak bukan 'manusia biasa' lagi. saya dengar dengar beliau sudah diangkat sebagai hero malaya menggantikan Rosyam Nor.waduh..waduh..hebat sungguh penangannya!

memang seronok jadi selebriti kan? baru setahun jagung,sudah terkenal;nama mula mendapat tempat, tawaran berlakon sekejap je dapat.mungkin sebab itu, ramai yang mahu jadi artis. termasuklah kawan kawan penulis (nama anda kekal rahsia).tapi benarkah hidup jadi artis ini sadis?

hampir setiap hari, penulis dan anda semua disaji dengan kisah kurang enak golongan artis; artis kene tipu, artis bercerai, artis mangsa video lucah etc..etc..
dan Remy Ishak tidak terlepas. baru baru ini peminat fanatik Remy dan tidak fanatik juga dikejutkan dengan berita beliau dibelasah beberapa lelaki di hadapan IB selepas teater Natrah.

malang kan? hanya gara gara gosip beliau bercintan dengan Ummi Nazeera,(penulis agak pasti bukan gosip semata) akhirnya lebam biji mata. kan penulis dah kata, jadi selebriti boleh mati! nasib baik cedera ringan sahaja.

IB pun sudah mula berjaga jaga. nak perketatkan kawalan keselamatan, bimbang pisang berbuah dua kali.ini mesti sebab yang dibelasah tu Remy Ishak, cuba kalau Ahmad mat kilang atau Ah Teong jual sayur yang kene belasah, agak agak nya IB terkesan ke? penulis, jangan hentam keromo ye.

tapi jadi selebriti buat money.

bagos farhana (sambil menepuk bahu kiri dengan tangan kanan)

kamu sudah berjaya menulis entri paling banyak pada bulan December jika nak di bandingkan dengan bulan-bulan sebelumnya.

dimana ada kemahuan, di situ ada jalan. senyum bangga~

.lets rethink.

"you cant change the past,but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future"

i was just goggled and i found the quote.no idea who wrote it but it is meaningful and inspirational. at least, for me.i always love to talk about time. how time affects us and how we are affected by time. it all make sense if we sit and think deeply, and i mean very deep to just browse back to what have happen for the past years...

truthfully,i have some regrets. if i have the chance; just one more chance, i wanna go back to those years and alter or adjust a few events.make it better.and my life would be as i want it to be. would it be? no one knows. to cease my pain, i always said to myself: nak wat camna, dah takdir.

cause most of us would believe, if we can control the past, we could control the present and also the future. most of us including myself, would feel sorry for what happened. but the truth is, no one to blame.it is now and here, are the things to worry. the decisions we made today will pay the consequences for tomorrow.

i'll graduated soon, hopefully.i couldn't get out of my mind thinking and worrying of what are in store for me in future.i would say that its the same dilemma faced by new product like us.sigh~ and we will plan, discuss and argue; feel full of anxiety and uneasy of what would happen to us anytime soon.

but now,i have stop.i know because i believe that the things that i have achieved in present will lead me through. so do you. for better or for worse, i should have no regrets. i have made my decisions, and i will bare the consequences.full stop.

p/s: lets go with flow, follow me :)

.cetusan.

di balik tingkap bilik rona hijau muda
titis hujan lebat semakin berlabuh
dingin sudah tidak lagi aku terasa

tapi entah mengapa
jiwa pula berantakan, hati juga tidak keruan
aku mahukan jawapan
namun aku tidak tahu apa soalan.

tolong!!

.just another episode in life.

i have never heard from him since we were in high school.i browsed in his FB and he was still the same guy i used to know. poyo third degree.

then, out of the blue he buzzed me.through FB chatroom.cliche as usual..

ko pekaba?
studi kat mana skrg?
bila nak kawin nie?
and
bla
bla
bla

the conversation was heated when he unravel his deep feelings.disappointment, anger, frustration; all stir into one unstable dough since two years ago.it was all because of a woman.truthfully. im not good in dealing with emotions, myself, but it touched me when i used to know a person who used to stand on the same road as his three years ago.

from that person's point of view, i tried to you know..say all that stuff. not just to please him but more or less, to let him know and wonder the hidden agendas behind of these unwanted events in life.yes.we have been good to people. and of course, we want them to be worthwhile.but things can get out of hand.as HIS creation, there is nothing we can do to stop.

we had a nice chat. but because i was too clumsy, i accidentally offline.above all that i was glad.definitely, not because i became a love counselor. but, it has never crossed my mind that he would trust me to share everything and anything. i was not his so called BFF or whatever.. but still, i feel awesome.

hey dude,u can find any chick u want in pasar tani. but REAL chick, with REAL attitude is rare but possible.

hey dude, all the best!!

.i hate mr net.

tired and sleepy are my two favorite words for the day.

since back from medan selera,i've nothing to do.lepaking in front the tv and lean on our best couch.ahh..how nice to be at home.mama should feel far more relief.i guess..as mama was the busiest person in town ;p (kesian mama)
then i saw a small light bulb over my head :

hmm bagus gak kalo tdo nie..

but nope. that was definitely not the first thing i did. instead i went for the mr net. but why should i? and how can it be? no one can answer me? look!! a question that can never been answered. how awful and destructive mr net can be to human being? and there was i, stuck in front of my lappy til 530pm.

and now.at this very fine moment. i am so damn tired and sleepy.shockingly i am still facing damn mr net.

p/s: im so not me.

.oh boy.

hold back all the tears
and left behind the cheers
together with me all my peers
need you to burn the fierce

body and soul together as one
killing you is all i want
you should know what you've done
as you'll see all the sign

oh boy you such a waste
wanna mash you like tomato paste
till no one wanna have a taste
or ever wanna chase

.chef of the day.

terngiang-ngiang suara mama mengingatkan aku untuk masak lunch nanti.

mama: along, keluarkan udang dari peti ais. masakla pape along suka. masa nie la nak tunjuk kehebatan. hehe

aku: hmm..

pujian mama tak terkesan di hati aku. sehingga jam 1230 pm aku masih berpeleseran di depan tv. tergolek-golek ke sana sini. dari kejauhan, pasti baba memandang aku tajam. perut berkeroncong. ketiadaan mama ke medan selera buat aku tidak senang duduk.bukan sebab aku nak ikut mama tapi sebab kene ke dapur. jadi wanita.. aduhh malas betul..

entah di mana datang tenaga.aku bangun dah gigihkan juga.kupas 2 biji bawang besar,3 ulas bawang putih,dan terkial-kial mencubit sedikit belacan. hmm pasti enak; terdetik aku sendiri. tidak semena-mena mama tiba di balik pintu dapur.

mama: hmm wanginya..(sambil tersenyum..)

pujian mama betul-betul terkesan. hati berbunga..

p/s: setinggi-tinggi wanita melangkah, akhirnya dapur juga tempatnya..=p

.mogok!!.

since yesterday, baba told me his wish to go for a walk at wangsa walk.from the day it was opened he had no chance to have a look. me too. so baba drove there, along with five of us (pity yah.. ahaks~)

seeing is believing. huge name, rumors here and there. definitely hopeless. thought that it would be a place for shopping spree and chill place for hand out. but hampeh..

things i spot on:

1. just like its name; wangsa walk. people just walk here and there. nothing to buy. nothing to eat.

2. no big names for restaurants..the worst is there are only a few seats available. they might think people like to stand while eating. what a waste..

3. until today, there is no tgv and boiling.hello??!! people wanna go there just for them

4. it is no fun at all.

lets mogok wangsa walk.

.sang pencinta.

aku terpanggil untuk menukil secebis rasa hati setelah terbaca beberapa entri daripada kak diyana dalam sanggar debat.bermakna dan cukup terkesan di hati.rata-rata semuanya angkara debat dan pencintanya. saya pasti ada antara kita tertanya dan meneka. mengapa saya menagihnya? apa penangannya?

mereka pernah mengasak.bertanya mengapa.tapi saya tidak pernah sekali tidak membelanya.mereka tidak tahu kerana mereka tidak pernah merasa.ia seperti cinta yang kamu mahu atau sedang rasai kini.tidak pernah ada paksa dan deritanya buat kamu mahu lagi. mungkin saya tidak seperti pencinta lain. yang bercinta sepenuh hati; jiwa dan raga.yang sentiasa ada bila perlu. yang tidak berhenti mencuba; perbaiki diri sang pencinta.

dunia ini buat saya terkadang lena sendiri.saya tidak mahu dibalut resah. diulit rasa bersalah. pada diri dan pada universiti yang saya wakili.masa bukan penghalang lagi. saya mahu mereka tahu; pada yang menilai dan memerhati.saya akan berusaha jagi pencinta abadi.yang jatuh bangun sendiri.

biar mereka mencela.tidak mengapa.walau saya tidak mungkin jadi seperti pencinta lain yang telah mengukir kisah cinta debat terulung, tidak ada salahnya.asal saya tahu saya masih ada waktu.untuk mengukir kisah cinta debat 'terulung' buat diri bilamana masa menjemput saya pergi.

.penat menunggu.

uish. penat je menunggu. aku dah beria susun ayat best punya
kalau terserempak ngan dia. cis rupanya baru aku tahu dia ke seminar.

hmm.kau buat aku gile..oh gigi besi..

.di awangan.

maaf kalau entri kali ini kedengaran sangat cheesy. tapi aku tidak kesah itu semua. kerna, aku mahu kamu tahu apa aku rasa.

perasaan ini buat aku bertanya lagi. walau jawapannya sudah pasti.aku bukan mahu meneka dan menduga apa ada dalam hatinya.aku tahu bukan mudah untuk memilih. apatah lagi untuk buat satu keputusan yang mungkin akan disesalkan. tapi aku sedar, dia bukan takut. atau tidak bersedia. cuma itulah dirinya.

aku akan disini.walau dilambung ombak.walau dihempas pantai. moga Tuhan akan sentiasa buka hati kamu hanya untuk aku.

p/s: aku terbang di awangan.

having news from some,
wanting badly to move forward,
waiting for the day to come,
dearie, you're not a coward.

.have a drink!.

if you're thirsty, lets have a drink.

p/s: iklan air botol. cheesy.

.aku akan tetap menunggu.

akhirnya..
perjuangan di UM terhenti setakat di quarter final. hmm rupanya mimpi aku untuk berdebat di pentas final hanya fantasi yang aku reka sendiri untuk jadi penguat semangat.
tapi xpe, aku yakin generasi baru UiTM akan menjadikan mimpi aku satu reliti satu hari nanti. aku akan setia menunggu..wink~

di sebalik penganjuran UM yang laha.. hehehe.aku rasa sgt seronok sbb:

1. ni ialah last royal aku.dan aku dapat merasa manisnya bersama semua. suka dan duka dirasai bersama

2. aku dapat bersama si dia dan keluarga baru UTM. heehee.

3. makin cinta pada dunia ini. cinta dan rasa di UM semua bergaul menjadi satu. debaran,kebanggaan, tangisan, dan segalanya.. walauapapun, ia kenangan paling indah buat aku..


p/s: tiada apa untuk disesalkan..