.cetusan.

di balik tingkap bilik rona hijau muda
titis hujan lebat semakin berlabuh
dingin sudah tidak lagi aku terasa

tapi entah mengapa
jiwa pula berantakan, hati juga tidak keruan
aku mahukan jawapan
namun aku tidak tahu apa soalan.

tolong!!

.just another episode in life.

i have never heard from him since we were in high school.i browsed in his FB and he was still the same guy i used to know. poyo third degree.

then, out of the blue he buzzed me.through FB chatroom.cliche as usual..

ko pekaba?
studi kat mana skrg?
bila nak kawin nie?
and
bla
bla
bla

the conversation was heated when he unravel his deep feelings.disappointment, anger, frustration; all stir into one unstable dough since two years ago.it was all because of a woman.truthfully. im not good in dealing with emotions, myself, but it touched me when i used to know a person who used to stand on the same road as his three years ago.

from that person's point of view, i tried to you know..say all that stuff. not just to please him but more or less, to let him know and wonder the hidden agendas behind of these unwanted events in life.yes.we have been good to people. and of course, we want them to be worthwhile.but things can get out of hand.as HIS creation, there is nothing we can do to stop.

we had a nice chat. but because i was too clumsy, i accidentally offline.above all that i was glad.definitely, not because i became a love counselor. but, it has never crossed my mind that he would trust me to share everything and anything. i was not his so called BFF or whatever.. but still, i feel awesome.

hey dude,u can find any chick u want in pasar tani. but REAL chick, with REAL attitude is rare but possible.

hey dude, all the best!!

.i hate mr net.

tired and sleepy are my two favorite words for the day.

since back from medan selera,i've nothing to do.lepaking in front the tv and lean on our best couch.ahh..how nice to be at home.mama should feel far more relief.i guess..as mama was the busiest person in town ;p (kesian mama)
then i saw a small light bulb over my head :

hmm bagus gak kalo tdo nie..

but nope. that was definitely not the first thing i did. instead i went for the mr net. but why should i? and how can it be? no one can answer me? look!! a question that can never been answered. how awful and destructive mr net can be to human being? and there was i, stuck in front of my lappy til 530pm.

and now.at this very fine moment. i am so damn tired and sleepy.shockingly i am still facing damn mr net.

p/s: im so not me.

.oh boy.

hold back all the tears
and left behind the cheers
together with me all my peers
need you to burn the fierce

body and soul together as one
killing you is all i want
you should know what you've done
as you'll see all the sign

oh boy you such a waste
wanna mash you like tomato paste
till no one wanna have a taste
or ever wanna chase

.chef of the day.

terngiang-ngiang suara mama mengingatkan aku untuk masak lunch nanti.

mama: along, keluarkan udang dari peti ais. masakla pape along suka. masa nie la nak tunjuk kehebatan. hehe

aku: hmm..

pujian mama tak terkesan di hati aku. sehingga jam 1230 pm aku masih berpeleseran di depan tv. tergolek-golek ke sana sini. dari kejauhan, pasti baba memandang aku tajam. perut berkeroncong. ketiadaan mama ke medan selera buat aku tidak senang duduk.bukan sebab aku nak ikut mama tapi sebab kene ke dapur. jadi wanita.. aduhh malas betul..

entah di mana datang tenaga.aku bangun dah gigihkan juga.kupas 2 biji bawang besar,3 ulas bawang putih,dan terkial-kial mencubit sedikit belacan. hmm pasti enak; terdetik aku sendiri. tidak semena-mena mama tiba di balik pintu dapur.

mama: hmm wanginya..(sambil tersenyum..)

pujian mama betul-betul terkesan. hati berbunga..

p/s: setinggi-tinggi wanita melangkah, akhirnya dapur juga tempatnya..=p

.mogok!!.

since yesterday, baba told me his wish to go for a walk at wangsa walk.from the day it was opened he had no chance to have a look. me too. so baba drove there, along with five of us (pity yah.. ahaks~)

seeing is believing. huge name, rumors here and there. definitely hopeless. thought that it would be a place for shopping spree and chill place for hand out. but hampeh..

things i spot on:

1. just like its name; wangsa walk. people just walk here and there. nothing to buy. nothing to eat.

2. no big names for restaurants..the worst is there are only a few seats available. they might think people like to stand while eating. what a waste..

3. until today, there is no tgv and boiling.hello??!! people wanna go there just for them

4. it is no fun at all.

lets mogok wangsa walk.